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You take my breath away andy, just sitting here on webcam staring at you makes me so content. I love you with all my heart and nothing compares to sitting at my computer and staring at you. I want you to realise that I’ll be here for you no matter what and I cant even’t take my eyes off of you as I write this.

Youre my bestfriend and that means that I’m devoted to you, I understand that telling you that I love you does involve a promise and I’m willing to keep that promise until the end of time. I’m willing to make a commitment to you forever and I mean that so much. The truth is I made that commitment a long time ago when I first fell in love with you, and it’s just reinforced every single day as I fall even deeper.

To the only person I’ve ever loved, the only person I want to spend my life with. I want to grow old and learn and travel with you.

Everyone takes things for granted. People that care, the fact that they have somewhere to sleep at night or even being alive. But you’re something that I’ll never take for granted, I just couldn’t do it. I’m thankful for you every single day and there’s not a minute that goes by where I don’t feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I’ve never taken this bracelet off, it means so much to me. You mean so much to me. I’m sorry if this turns out to be really rambled and not very well structured but I have so much love for you, it just comes out.

What we have to is so perfect Andy, even in the simplest way. The fact that we have each other is what everyone wants. But we don’t only have that, we have so much more. Countless things that I consider myself so lucky for each day. We have trust, so much that we can be comfortable around each other. I could say whatever and I know that I won’t be judged or criticized. I feel like I can be myself around you, and that’s one of the most beautiful feelings in the world. We’ve got the best friendship in the world, and also the best relationship.

The fact that we’ve overcome every single little wobble that life’s thrown at us makes me so sure that we’re strong enough to overcome anything. The things that once seemed so overwhelming and intimidating now just seem comical. Age, for example. But we’ve just moved on and now nothing can stop us. I really mean it when I say that, there’s nothing that can get in the way of us or our future, nothing apart from our sometimessillybrains.

I re blogged something earlier, a quote and it’s so true:

“When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, and want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart.”

You’ve always had an effect on me which I can hardly describe. You make me melt so much, I can’t help but be so stunned every time I see/hear/talk to you. I don’t just get stunned and can’t help but stare at you for 3 hours on webcam because you’re the most handsome man I’ve ever seen(or who’s ever lived), but I just get absorbed in your beauty. Your personality is second to none and I can’t stress that enough. Just thinking about who you are and what you are is enough to start the happy tears. I don’t know if this’ll make sense or if I have much of a clue of what I’m talking about, but I think you have this amazing aura about you. It draws me in, and just gives me hope. Obviously I can’t recognize the ‘scent of your skin’ but it doesn’t matter. I know what yellow lynx smells like:p. I can simply look at you and feel all these wonderful emotions at once, like suddenly everything has meaning. It’s going to sound so cliché, but you give me hope and strength. You make me feel safe. I feel safe in the knowledge that I’ll always find a friend in you, you give me hope that there really are good people in the world (you make it all so beautiful), and the strength to carry on even when things are at their worst. Your personality really is shown and portrayed in the way you look, in the best way possible. It’s been proven by my parents, they’re so accepting of you and they’ve only seen a few pictures (oh and the sappy one, but yeah). You’re a beautiful person Andy and you shouldn’t let yourself tell you otherwise. Your heart is always in the right place. I want you to know that I don’t say any of this for no reason or out of habit or whatever; I say it because I truly believe it and I want you to believe it to. I want to make you feel like the beautiful person you are.

Everything I do is for you. I either have you in mind, or I’m doing it for us and I love it. I love thinking about you, I love how you’re the first person I think about when I wake up and the last person on my mind as I fall asleep. My day starts and ends with you and that makes for a perfect day. Every day. Talking to you is so amazing oh my god; just thinking about it makes me melt. Everything about you is so flawless Andy, you’ve made me the happiest girl in the world (as well as the sappiest and of course the luckiest).

Things were so different last year Andy, it’s mind blowing. I found this on a personal tumblr I made a while ago (I put the conversation that we had on it to remember and to look back on.) I thought you might be interested, it’s really strange. This was when you told me you were in love with me, 11 months ago.

“I’m so in love with you. Just had to say that sorry. Miss you. Hope we can talk loads tomorrow.”

“I think I’m in love with you too but don’t you think we’re a bit stupid? We’ve never met.”

“Yup, I just really like you. I think you’re awesome. That’s portrayed in your personality, IRL or not. If you think I’m stupid for liking your personality in the way I perceive it in text then sorry. I’ll stop saying it from now on, love is a bad word.”

“What I mean is.. Don’t you ever doubt that it’s love? Yeah I don’t know why but it is a bad word. I know what you mean.”

“I don’t know nor care.”

“Um, okay.”

“Its 1am, I’m tired and annoyed. I can’t debate the limits on my emotional boundaries right now.”

“It’s fine.”

“Sorry for my blunt attitude, I think too much. Goodnight.”

“Okay night.”

“Sleep well, take care. Talk tomorrow.”

“You too.”

“x Don’t hate me.”

“I don’t.”

“I’m so cold.”

“Me too.”

“At least it’s summer soon, it will be good.”

“Yeah hope so.”

“I like robin hood, so yeah.”

“Aha never got round to watching that.”

“An idiot abroad is amazing. My current fave.”

It’s really nice to realise how much things have changed, and really understand how far we’ve come. I’m so thankful for every single day andy, you make it come alive.

I would do anything for you. Absolutely anything, even snog my own hand if it was life or death. I’d do anything for you because I’m so completely head over heels in love with you andy. I’m devoted to you.

Talking to you is a bit like this: http://make-everything-ok.com/

It’s just you and me okay? I really believe that. Nobody else matters, because you’re all I care about. You’re all I think about and I love it.

Also I made another little playlist: http://open.spotify.com/user/claire_espley/playlist/7o1ZDaPVh0q0j5jLmwUlGY

I just want to try and explain how much you mean to me andy, you have this massive effect on me and I’m just so in love with you. You mean more than anything in the world to me, and I know that nothing I ever say or do will even scratch the surface of my feelings for you, but that wont stop me trying.

You take all my worries away, every single one of them. You of all people should know I worry about anything, and with you, nothing like that matters. You make me forget all these negative things that arent worth worrying about and I can’t thank you enough. You help me so much. Every single day is perfect when I have you andy, and I’m not just saying any of this for the sake of it. I’m nothing without you, and I know that for a fact. I can feel at my worst but I wont even care because I know that I have you, and you make me feel so strong. Like if I’m with you, I can do anything.

You show me daily the true power of love, and how it really will always conquer everything. Nothing can stop us now and I really mean that, we have eachother and we’re going to make this work because we can and we need to. I’m never going to let anything get in the way of us. But you don’t only show me the power of love, but the power of perseverance and determination. We wouldn’t have got this far without setting our hearts on our future. I’m willing to try anything, do anything just to show you how much I appreciate you.

I don’t only just appreciate sappy surprises, or essays or doodles, but I appreciate how you’re there for me. You’ve constantly been there when I’ve needed you and that means more to me than anything else could. The fact that I have you and you have me is the best thing in my life, and your heart is the best gift I could have ever been given. I’ve tried my best to cherish it and look after it, I know how important it is because I’ve given you my heart too. I gave it to you a long time ago. I appreciate how you look after me when I’m not feeling well, how you ask me if I’m okay and I appreciate that I can tell you the truth. I can say if I’m not okay because you wont judge me and you’ll listen to me. You’re the only person I’ve ever been able to say that about. Lately I’ve been too uptight, and I realise this now, I’m just so sorry it sometimes has to take a night of you crying on skype for me to realise (I’m just very thick lol). But since discussing that I’ve been open with you. I realise now that there’s a difference between being yourself and being open. I share with you everything in my life, I’ve told you about my grandad. I don’t tell anyone this kind of thing.

I dont know if this is going to make sense, but whenever I’m texting you I feel like I’m at home. I feel like everything really is going to be okay, just one text can make me feel so happy and reassured. I don’t care where I am because when I have you, nothing else matters. I want you to know how much I care about you because I feel like I may not show it enough, or in the right way. I’m just so lucky to have even met you and the fact that you’ve graced my life with your beauty has made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

I never want you to leave me because you’re my whole world, I can’t even think about what it would be like without you. But the truth is, I already know what it’s like without you (from the ‘blocking incident’) and it ruined me. I don’t think I tell you this enough. I really did cry myself to sleep, wondering if you’ve moved on and trying to be happy for you. I kept telling myself that it was for the best and you didn’t want me weighing you down, but I was so so wrong. I need you andy because you’ve always been the best thing in my life. You take everything and make it beautiful.

The only thing I’ve ever expected from you is to be my friend andy, I never thought any of this would ever happen. I feel so lucky, like karma’s been ridiculously nice to me for some reason. I don’t really understand what good I could have possibly done from the ages 0-11.. but I’m very very blessed. Not in a christian way, just I can’t really think of a good way to describe how you’ve made my life the best it’s ever been. Some people say being a teenager were some of the hardest years of their lives, but that’s not true for me because I have you andy.

We’ve come so far and this is all meant to be, I know it. All the coincidences really do mean something, you mean everything to me. Nothing’s going to stop us now, okay?

I love you andy.

I love you.